June Blogging Challenge Day 24 - Mama Fears

Today's prompt is, "What's your biggest fear about becoming a mom?"

Oi vey, as much as I want to be a mama, I'll admit that I'm scared.

I'm scared of...

• My son getting a girl pregnant, having to drop out of school and work to pay child support
• My daughter getting pregnant in high school (or before!) and dropping out
• Passing on the family diseases 
• Potty training a boy
• Having to teach my daughter that her self worth doesn't come from how skinny she is or what designer clothes she has
• Having to teach my son that his self worth isn't from the girls he's slept with or what car he drives
• Having to explain death and why things like bombings and war happen
• The first instance of bullying
• The first heartbreak
• The constant "am I doing what's best for my child?" question that will run through my head for the rest of my life
• That I won't bond with my boys as much as my husband does
• That we won't be able to spend as much time with my children's grandparents and extended family as we would like
• That my husband will work too much and will miss out on things like first steps and their first word
• Having to raise children in such a materialistic world
• Trying to convince my children that their quirks and personalities are what make them amazing and unique, that they don't have to be like every other child in their school. I hope that my children will have the courage to be themselves and not like everyone else. 

And let's be honest here, I'm scared that...

• My body won't be able to handle being pregnant 
• My body won't be able to handle child birth and I won't get the med-free natural birth I want
• I won't be able to breastfeed, something that I really want to do
• And for the sake of being really truly honest, that my body will never be the same

But I know that all of these fears will be worth it when...

• My child stands up against a bully for their friends 
• My child goes against the grain and wears/does/says what s/he wants, no matter what society is telling them to do
• I get those hugs and kisses, especially in front of their friends when it's not "cool"
• When my children grow up to be successful, respected members of society

I know that some of these fears, like having to potty train a boy are somewhat silly, but others, like the rising teen pregnancy rate and having to explain death are something that I really fear as a potential parent. I know that Keegan and I will be able to overcome these challenges as a team, but it's still something that I think about once in a while.

So, what about you ladies? What is your biggest fear about being a parent?